This is the start of what will be a journey through my life. I was thinking a diary but that would show a half-ass addiction to technology. I'm one of the all or nothing guys, so here goes. Hopefully blogger will stay active for the next 30-40 years.
Through life I have been a lot of things. Mostly a confused kid, not sure of what the world would throw out. With two parents who taught 'ideals' and not 'reality,' it's a bit tough to get a grasp on what is real. However, I seem to be slowly forming into my own person - and the more I do so, the more I feel my parents are really just ignorant about 'reality.'
Currently, I'm working on being able to approach women. I'm working on investing. I'm working on building my company. I'm working on getting back into school and getting a degree. I'm working on improving myself... get the point?
Well, last night I went out with a few people from work. It was a blast, since the guys I was with were actually 'decent' at talking to women. Anyway, long story short - my customer and I were the last ones left of the group. We went to a cigar bar and I found out that he is interested in a higher up at my company. Wow... that's a pretty large bit of news to drop on me. Seeing as this 'higher up' is about three levels above me. I guess that only means that people view me as trustworthy, and since this blog will always remain anonymous his secret is safe with me.
As for approaching women? I'm still shy. I even had women come up to the group and chat, then comment on how young, or cute, or sexy I was. Of course they weren't that attractive, but I could've at least taken them out around the room. I didn't. I sat there. It was lame. I keep telling myself it's due to my decision to not be 'sexually active' for a year (which ends in a little over a month)... but I honestly don't think that's it. I read somewhere that there are 500 reasons not to approach a woman, and one reason to do it. I'm clearly focusing on the reasons not to, and I think it's more like 10,000 reasons.
This first post is a bit long, because lets face it - there are quite a few years before today that need to be covered.
Two days ago I told a girl that I was hanging out with a lot that she needs to make sure to not get into me. I told her to be careful and to make sure she isn't falling for me, because the relationship will NOT go in that direction.
Today, I was going through a friends (online) photo-album, and I found pictures of my ex (from a couple of months back), in a limo, with her dress off, with a bunch of guys... the caption said... "What happened in the limo, stays in the limo." I guess I should say that the friend who owns the photo album is her 'homo-sexual' room-mate... I guess I'll stick with my original plan. Convince myself she doesn't matter and continue on with life. 80% achieved.
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